Just got my first “We’re sorry, you’re not right for the job.”
I sit here in my desk still trying to cling on to what just happened. The head writer of a company I applied on talk to me and was open about my work for the past three days. See, I applied as a writer in a SEO company. I’ve always seen myself as a writer and I thought that maybe I could handle the job. I was just looking for a part-time job when I found their job ad on the internet. Since they will accept any graduate from any course, I decided to give it a try.
During the interview, I was able to show that I was fully dedicated in getting the job. Although I end up saying I’ll go full time, nevertheless, I still went on since they took me for a five day training. I found out that it wasn’t really a training but a try-out. The head writer wanted to see how I handle different types of task in terms of writing and at the same time see how I write as a writer. I didn’t knew what to expect, but I went through it anyways.
Since first day, I have thought that maybe this isn’t the right job for me. For starters, the first comment I had was that I was a “juvenile writer”. Being a juvenile delinquent was something I understood, but a “juvenile writer”? The head writer told me that I’m not that mature when it comes to writing and I tend to joke around in my articles. But having a mature and professional writing is something that the company is looking for. Anyways, she did told me not to lose hope since it was still my first day.
Second day happened and things still stayed the same. I was still making the “getting there but not quite there yet” articles. I was starting to doubt my abilities as a writer. ..
Am I really a writer?
Am I good in making literary form of writing?
Was everything about me as a writer all a lie?
I already had a hint that she probably won’t recommend me. Worst, I still have three days left. I felt it will be all useless since they won’t hire me anyways. But Day Three was still to come, at least I had to give it a shot.
Number three is such a powerful number that indicates the end. I guess that day three for me here is actually the end. Just like the first two days, the head writer gave me another assignment. She gave me two topics and I had to make two articles for each. It was hard since I had no idea about the topics. But I always get the job done, so I searched about it and started my articles away. It really didn’t took me long to finish the four, but I seem to have notion that my articles were still….getting there.
After sending my last article to the head writer, we had a little chat on my performance for the past three days. She told me that she thought I was able to live up to my words when I said I could be flexible for the job. That despite my nursing background, I could still write the way she expects me to. She told me that they’re looking for true writers that could really write without having to be supervised. She said I had the potential, but I guess I won’t get it in a short span of time.
It was really a no wonder for me when she told me that instead of having a five days trial, she’ll just cut it off to three since its hassle for me to come back next week. But in truth, I guess it was already hassle for her part to deal with a writer than won’t be able to do the job anyways. I am really disappointed at myself and I wonder why I still bothered to write here if I’m not really a “true writer”. I guess it’s the belief that I know I am still a writer. I know that I can write. However, I am no talented writer that could probably write anything, be flexible in any style or topic. I guess I’m the type of person that writes, just for the sake of expressing something. Maybe I’m just an ordinary blogger, a “juvenile writer” you might say.
I’m still here sitting on my desk, waiting for the shift end. But you know, I am still grateful and thankful for my three days experience here. I really learned a lot. In terms of writing, I really gained a lot of insight. And I was able to learn stuff I never thought I’ll ever encounter or learn. Well, I guess being a writer in a SEO Company isn’t really my thing. Copywriter, content writer, I’m not good at those. I guess I’ll just stick to what I do best, writing whatever I want, whatever way I will write it. Off to the next job…
Noel Yulo
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